someone: Why are you so obsessed with monsters anyway?
me, internally: I have always an intense identification with non-human creatures. They help me with self-identification. They’re allowed to stray from typical beauty standards, which appeals to me, and they are allowed to be gender nonconforming, not to mention not have any gender at all. Typically “ugly” parts are turned into wonderful and handsome or beautiful form. Monsters are a really interesting way for me to accept both myself and my own standards of beauty.
me, out loud: they sometimes have multiple arms and muscles and are hot