i had a cumulative like… 2000 days /played time in world of warcraft by the time i quit in 2020; it really isn’t a wonder why i’ve felt so listless and lacking in identity the past few years. i want that kind of passion for something again. i think a lot of people would consider that time wasted because it was on a video game, but i can’t look at the medium through which i met most of my friends and developed most of my artistic skill as a waste– quitting the game didn’t wake me up from some coma and allow me to grow, it just left a void shaped like a community in my chest.
I feel this so much. I realized a few months ago how much sheer creative energy I was putting into things so that I could draw them later.
Its nice that I’m not subject to the outrageous fortune of WoW lore… but just being able to bash stuff out was nice too